I have to admit, the song came to mind first before anything else...and then the story developed from there...Enjoy!!
"You
would not listen, you did not know how."
The
variation on the classic words from Vincent by Don McLean are running through
my head as I drive down the interstate. I took some liberties with the lyrics I
know, but there is no one to mind, no one who cares. I don’t blame you, it simply is, and there is
no going back now anyway.
Has it been
twelve years already? Since we met and married on impulse, driving to Maryland
on a cold and dreary Friday in March? It was raining that night I remember, and
I was worried about how the pictures would turn out. Silly really, little girl
nonsense.
We built a
life, we built a home. Our sweetest conversations came not from our lips but
from our bodies, we touched when there were no words to say.
The lost of
our child built a wall of silence too deafening for our quiet whispers of pain.
When I spoke of him, you simply turned your head and pretended not to hear.
Last night
we slept in separate beds, in separate rooms, the dying remains of a love
disappearing in the gray shadows of ash between us.
Now I drive
away on another rainy afternoon in March from an unfamiliar courthouse where a
stranger that I hadn’t invited in sat behind a bench and told me we are no
longer married and I am no longer a wife.
I wonder
what I will be tomorrow.
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